Friday, Day 46

Today started off great!  (NOT)  I ended up at Walmart before 8am.  That is how no ones day should start.  I had no creamer and no tampons.  I can no go to a pool playdate without either, so off to Walmart we go.

My non-imaginary friend, Jenny came to the house for a little playing before the pool time.  It was almost comical to try and have a conversation over 6 kids playing in the same room.  Also, great birth control!

I got pumped talking about MOPS with Jenny.  She has the sneeky crazy way of making me think I can do all of these great things with our group. I was so pumped, I spent nap time printing stuff to make these cool notebooks for each leadership position.  I started thinking while I was making these, about why I feel so commited to making this an awesome year.  I think this is why:
        I have always prayed on my way to my "other job" to feel like I was making a difference on some level to someone today.  I haven't felt that way in almost 2 years.  I don't really like my job at the hospital.  I haven't really complained because, #1- I have a job and #2- I don't have to work holidays, weekends, overtime, great schedule, flexible bosses, great pay, for doing NOTHING.  But that is also the problem.  I do NOTHING!  At least there are more often than not, these days where I feel pointless at my job.  I have worked outside the box, just to keep myself busy, but that is not my personality.  To be blissfully happy on my butt, not running around like a chicken with my head cut off (like I used to when I worked in the ED at Main).  I feel soemtimes, like if I didn't show up to work, it wouldn't make a difference at all.  That really bothers me.  SO, I am going to stay at my other job and make the best of it, but when I am at MOPS, I am going to give all of that energy to these women and make this year the best.  I am going to ask God to lead me in making a difference in this position.  I feel God is leading me into a leadership position and guiding me in His word.  I pray that I can make a difference as the Coordinator this year on some level to someone.