Friday, Day 32

This 1/2 caffeine in my coffee crap has got to go!!

Everyday, I am waking up with a headache.  And if for some miracle I don't wake up with a headache it will come about 11:30ish when 1/2 the caffeine I had a 7:30 wears off.  I have tried to drink more, but I don't think it is helping my calorie intake to drink 2or3 x as much since my coffee is actually 2/3 coffee and the rest flavored creamer (the good stuff) and little sugar :)  Mmmmm!

Back to important stuff.  TODAY SUCKED!  It was so bad that when I initially tried to journal today, I just wrote OMG with about ten exclamation points.  It was awful!!  Here you go with a rundown:
          7:25- woke up and made 1/2 caff coffee
          7:27- got in slight disagreement with husband seconds before he left for work
          7:35- was so upset about slight disagreement that EVERYTHING the kids did annoyed me
          8:00- tried the get kids upstairs so I could shower and get ready to leave for MOPS
          8:10- yelled at the kids for asking them multiple times to go upstairs
          8:15- got in the shower late and tried to rush.  Kids insisted on taking bath
          8:35- STRONGLY encouraged Jonathan to get out of tub and get dressed for the 4 time
          8:45 found two naked children playing in playroom when I finished drying my hair
          8:46- BOOM!!!  "We are not going to MOPS at the park today!"
          8:48- thought maybe I would go and tried to find matching outfit I wanted Ethan to wear and
                   stuff started falling out of closet onto my head.  LOST IT!  Threw some clothes and
                  started to cry. 
                  This was quickly followed by a text and call April explaining why I wouldn't be there
          9:00- proceeded to take everything out of Ethan's closet and reorganize and throw some crap
                   out (crying kids who are upset about not going to park are confined to their rooms)

THIS is why people drink!

By, I don't know 10:30/11am I got a call from Jenny.  My always positive, always happy, lift you up, non-imaginary friend to made a really good point.  The kids are feeding off of your upset energy.  See Matt got me upset and the devil used that moment to ruin my morning, by making me really pissy with a 2 inch fuse.  Yes, the kids were pushing and whining, but nothing unusual.  But, boy I reacted with fire and rage.  Then they just feed off of that behavior and got worse instead of better.  Jenny suggested that I leep them in their rooms and tell them to stay for 20 minutes while Mommy had some quite time in her room.  I closed my door and turned on the exhaust fan in the bathroom to drown out the intermittent calls from Ethan asking if he could come out of his room.  I prayed and talked it out with the Lord.  Then I read, randomly from the Bible.  I gave all of my pissyness and frustrations with the ENTIRE morning over to Jesus, and came out of my room.

I then went to the kids room and brought them into the playroom.  I sat them down and apologized for my "craziness" and promised that we would have a better day.  We hugged and started fulfilling that promise.  Duck Duck Goose style :)

(doorbell)      I open to the door to Jenny bringing me a donut.  That crazy girl brought me a donut cheer me up!  Definitely need for sanity not weight loss.

From there, the day got better :)  I even decided to jog after dinner when Matt was home with the kids.  He thought maybe he need to get the kids away from me after such an awful day and I grabbed my i pod and left.  Of course I haven't "ran" since oh... 2005??  It was more like jog, walk, jog, walk, walk, jog, walk, walk, walk walk.  But I was sweating like a pig and sore by bedtime.  Maybe this exercise will help. 

On to tomorrow!